FRIDAY

Yesterday I worked with my uncle for the very first time! All I did was: smilin, walking around asking people how they did, help them find what they were looking for, and call the securitas when a lady puked in the flowerpot. I loved it, finally I get to do something I like while earning money! <3 Yeay, LOVES!

L.A

W-H-Y

D-O

E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E

L-O-V-E

L-A?

L.A

W-H-Y D-O E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E L-O-V-E L-A?

Burberry

Yesterday I bought myself a new burberrycoat! Hooray! Love, love, love!

Date

Captured light

The date was ok, but he (D) was kind of boring, interested in sports and cars... The interest for drugs is probably the only thing we have in common.. HM. We went to an expencive restaurant, ate, drank wine and talked, then he took me home, and we ended up stoned in his bed. Ofc. I called our driver, and he took me home where my aunt waited. I managed to act normal, luckily.

L.A

Things are getting better, I think. Been sitting in the sun, reading for an hour, and tonight i`m going out for a date, which my aunt has approved (!!). Next week i`m going to work at an opening of a new, fancy store. I guess there will be a lot of hot guys there, haha. Anyone who wants guestlist? Tell me!

Bye Bye school!

Ok, I`ve quit school, and I`ll start working in my uncle`s PR-company. Woah. Now I`ll get to meet people a lot more, and spend the night out! Perfect, or what!? Still, I miss friends at my age, I can`t trust the people here, they are so obsessed with being cool enough, pretty enough, rich enough.. Blargh.

Better go to bed, it`s way too late/early.. 6 o`clock in the morning.. omg, i`m tired.

Happiness

It`s time to become more happier: I have what I want, don`t I?

I`ve got: Disney films, Agent provocateur, bubblegum, memories, mac, iphone, chanel, alexander wang, a BIG bed, and a few lovers.

Remember

Do you remember?

Dark nights.

"In fact, you have become
All of the things you've always run from."
-The Ascent of Stan, Ben Folds Five

Familyportrait

I have an uncle and a cousin here in L.A, but I`ve only visited them once since I moved her. Everyone is so busy with their own life, I just want to be free, stay up all night, close my eyes, dance. Sometimes I want to hang out with my cousin, like we did when we were younger: playing in the garden, making fun of our neighbours, but my cousins friends are It-persons and celebrities, and I guess I`ll have to join her gang to spend time with her, but I know I`ll only feel stupid and awkward around them.

School

I`ve stopped doing my homework, but I am going to school, our driver are following me to the door. I don`t have the strenght to run away, starting a new life, make money.

90210

I love the old Beverly hillsepisodes, they remind me of my childhood.

Family buisiness

Photo: MagicMorgan

I should probably consider starting over new: waking up before school starts, do my homework, be nice, say thank you to my family for giving me money, clothes, food, everything I need, but, at the same time I feel that I should be thankful, it feels so wrong:
Why can`t I dress and say what I mean?
Why do I have to act just like my family?
Why won`t they let me take and face my choice?
Why do I have to go to school when it feels so wrong?

I know I seem like a stupid teenagegirl, but i`m so tired of following my fathers footsteps. It`s not me, I have to make my own choice.

Suddenly everything felt so hard..

The last few days have been weird, don`t know how to explain, but everything feels so difficult, and I don`t even want to go out partying anymore. Been lying in my bed for a couple of days, pretending that im sick.. I`ll try to explain later today, or tomorrow.

My dad.

Photo: Natalion

Why my father won`t let me come home:
1. He think that I party less in L.A (haha)
2. The school is stricter here
3. My aunt can look after me
4. I can`t talk to "my bad friends"
5. He can work instead of taking care of me

Still.. I love him.

Dad

I called my father:
"I want to go home..", I said.
"You can`t", he said.
"Why?"
"You can`t"
"I can, I promise you"
"You`ve promised som many times", he said.

Norway

Bharfot

I miss Norway, I miss the cold weather, the snow, the rain, the autmnleaves. I miss waking up to grey weather, to the fresh icecold air, all the people dressed in black coats, scarfes and mittens. I miss my dad, I miss home, I miss my friends, even my school. I don`t want to be an L.A`er anymore. I want to go home, so badly.