Love&kiss

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I like L.A a littlebit better when Melkehvit is here. She helps me connect a little more with other people here, that she knows.

Yesterday we kissed the barguy to get drinks for the rest of the night, and tonight she`ll sleep at my place if my aunt stabile enough to have guests.

Do

So what am I doing these days?
Dancing with strangers
Running in the streets, when it`s dark
Reading Virginia Woolf
... and now I`m just about to go to bed...

Fuck the pain away.

Today (as always), I want to drink away my pain. Hopefully I`ll induce Melkehvitt and Signe to join me..

I`ve done one nice thing today: Made a big lunch for M.

<3

List.

Photo: Melkehvit
I went to Signe`s apartment today, too meet my friend. Signe`s mom was there, so it felt like we were a little European family in L.A (although i`m not in their family). I`m trying to do good things with Melkehvitt, she`s writing a list right now.. MM.

Milkshake & friends

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Today I`ve been hanging out with my friend Melkehvitt. We`ve been travelling around in the city, shopping and drinking strawberrymilkshake. Mm!

The nice things I`ve done today:
Smiled to strangers
Opened doors for old ladys

Things to do:

Think about it !

Milk

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I`m tired and it`s late, way too late. My friend from Norway, Uteerdetmelkehvitt, is coming to L.A this week. She`ll be living with her aunt and cousin, but I guess we`ll hang out A LOT. Wow, how I miss her!!

Cats

Today I feed some hungry and homeless cats. I should have given them a home, but I don`t know anyone who wants them, and my aunt only allow certain catraces...

Have you been doing something nice today?

Why my aunt is sad.

I don`t know the real reason to why she is sad, she got what she needs (?): a big house, children, a husband, lots of maids etc. Maybe L.A is making her sad. Sometimes she reminds me of Anna Anka, so obsessed of being the perfect wife, mother, person.. Someday I`ll try ask her what`s wrong.

How can I help?

Photo: andreajudit

When my aunt isn`t mad, she`s sad. It`s so hard to watch her cry, almoust every night. What can I do to help her?

Dedicated to Signe Engis

Photo: Signe Engis

Today I want to dedicate a post to someone special: Signe.
I want you to know that I think about you,
I care and I`m afraid. I don`t want you to get thinner, emptier, more scared.
It makes me sad to see how you feel, how you`re getting smaller, emptier, each single day. Take care, you`ll be better, you`ll feel better. Someday.

Yes/No

Alison Scarpella

So, has something changed after i started my new project?

Yes/No

Yes: i`m thinking more about the small things, taking choices for others, feeling a little bit more worthy.

No: Still drinking too much, wasting my time, casual sex, feeling empty and lonely.

How do you feel about yourself now a days?

Will you remember me?

Tree castles

I`ll be good today:
I`ll be remembering.
Remembering summerdays, rainydays, your body against mine, your lips against mine, your hands in my hands. Your words in my ear.

Maybe I`ll send the email I should have sent ages ago. Maybe I`ll tell him:


I loved him.

Smile

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Today I`ll try to smile to everyone that passes me, and I hope you`ll do the same..
Will you?