Marie Antoinette New years eve

I cancelled my flight to L.A, so I`ll stay here in Norway for a couple of more days. I`m glad that I can celebrate new years eve here with my old friends, like I`ve always been doing. We`re going to a big masquaradeparty, I`ll be dressed up like Marie Antoinette, so I`ll be drinking the most expencive champagne and eat macrones. I`m going there with my ex-boyfriend, so I don`t know how the night will end....

A doll`s house

They are sending me back to L.A, regardless of what I want.
Maybe it`s ok, because I don`t know, Norway is cold, and I`ll get back to the same tracks as before, I know. But still, L.A is not me, I`m living in a dollhouse, surrounded by dolls.

Winter wonderland.

I left my camera in L.A, but I wish I could show you how it looks in Norway now:
Everything is covered in snow, EVERYTHING. We could hardly open the door this morning, because of all the snow. Mm. I love the snow here, but, ironically, I don`t feel like i`m home, when i`m in Norway either.. I guess L.A have managed to change me already..

Norway 1.

Back in Norway, it`s cold, SO cold, I can`t move outside.. Brr.

Leaving

I`m flying home to Norway in a couple of hours. Don`t know when I`ll be back, or how it will be in Norway. Are my friends still the same? Do we like the same things, and, maybe the most important thing: Am I the same? Will my father let me move home again, will i go back to L.A? I don`t know. I don`t know. I don`t know.

Comments.

This comment ment so much to me:

"but doesn't it feel like part of you is in Norway?

if no, then you will not miss it

if yes, then perhaps you didn't like the part you left behind in Norway".

And it made me think of this:



Thanks to Soren Lorensen

Holiday

Photo: Geoff Barenger

I`m going home to Norway in a couple of days, and for the first time I`m not shore if I want to go or not. I like my new job here, I like the boy that knocks at my window each night, and sometimes I wonder: why do I miss Norway? What did I do except from taking drugs, drinking and fucking. Nothing.

Jenny/Serena

I`ve always seen myself as a person like Jenny in the latest season of Gossip girl:
strong, but lonely
inside the game, but still feeling outside

the last weeks I`ve felt like Serena: tall, blone, strong and in controle.

The actor

Sorry for the lack of updates, but I`ve been really busy working and of course... Meeting a new man... An actor this time.. He is known as a hard working/drinking man, but he is kind and sweet to me.. Secretly he wants to be a write.. How sweet.

Secrets, sex, fame and money in L.A

Some of my readers are wondering how I look, and what my full name is, but i`m sorry, I can`t say: My family is well-known here in L.A, and I don`t want them to get in trouble for what I do, I don`t want the magazines to find out our story, through my blog.. I guess you understand.

Sex and the city!

Suddenly I remembered Sex and the city! Yeay! I love Aiden.